Thursday, September 30, 2010

Happy sun aligns w/the planet of harshness, Saturn

Monsoon watch in effect. 

I fight with my bitterness a lot. I hate it, but that’s the truth. The older you get, the more humbled you become and the less inspired you are. It sucks, but what can you do? The point is to keep fighting to want to still believe, want to still hope and want to stay curious…but of course, spending much time in one's head can mean too many hours of space to fill thinking about everything that is self-defeating… Luckily, I’m a Gemini rising, so that means having two heads in one and being my own movable party. It makes it easy to do double duty in playing roles too, as in side-stepping into being my own babysitter — as in the person who has to constantly come up with tasks to keep me busy, while I can go off and do other things…because, if I am not busy, I’m a psychological thriller ready to happen.

Thursday, September 23, 2010

Full moon in Aries

New! New! New!

Today's full moon was at zero degrees and in Aries, the first sign of the zodiac, which means big things astrologically speaking--as in a whole new cycle and new beginnings. Time to throw out the old and start with the new, while throwing caution to the wind, as it's about trusting your gut and being willing to take risks.

As for me, things are moving along quite swimmingly. However, I constantly have to remind myself not to get too far ahead of myself and create outcomes to situations before letting them turn what they may, because the downfall for me, as I learn over and over again, is that I tend to build things up to greatly disappoint or disregard opportunities instantly, as it has to wow me at the start or never at all. Either all, they all spell reckless behavior and while I may never be cured of this tendency, I might as well the least, I can then say it sucked, right?

Anyway, if you are reading this, you are probably a lot like me, as in a reactionary type that goes in and out of thinking they know everything to some degree... If so, then make the following note to self, as in, "I promise to not be so quick to judge (even if I swear I am psychic) and give things a chance in the following areas, as not all surprises come in recognizable packages and until you know for sure, you know nothing," ...and with full/new moons usually only in full effect for two weeks, the good news is that if this new way of living doesn't work for you, then you can scrap it ASAP...but if it does, then woohoo for being in tune with this astrological happening!

Areas per sign in which to sample:
Aries (March 21-April 19): Celebrating your accomplishments with humility
Taurus (April 20- May 20): Giving yourself compassion 
Gemini (May 21- June 20: Taking part in charity
Cancer (June 21-July 22): Being open about fighting for what you want
Leo (July 23- August 22): Listening to others, and not just for cues on when you can talk again
Virgo (August 23- September 22): Seeing intimacy as a beautiful thing, rather than work
Libra (September 23- October 22): Sticking to commitments
Scorpio (October 23-November 21): Practicing things to make perfect
Sagittarius (November 22- December 21): Being more selfless in giving romance
Capricorn (December 22-January 19): Being more involved with family
Aquarius (January 20-February 19): Being direct in your communications
Pisces (February 20-March 20): Thinking seriously for the long-term

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Sun enters Libra, So begins the Autumn Equinox

Achieving balance means accepting that all good things can't last forever...

Goodbye summer, so sad to see you go... So to deal, I desperately held onto its tail ends by skipping out to the beach with my fab friends Dyami and FLC to squeeze out every last minute of summer left... and OMG, was it spectacular! Any day spent in a bikini with vegging as the only thing on the agenda is a dream!!!!! ...Au revoir mon amour, thanks for so many more memories to love...
Last Beach Photo Of Summer 2010

(S.P.F. 2010 = Long Beach, Fire Island, Southhampton (New York); Ocean Grove, Asbury Park (New Jersey) with Dyami, FLC, Alexi, Pierre, Sherene, Tet, Christine, Sophie & Sarah.)

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Mars enters Scorpio

It's all or nothing right now!!!!

Mars, the planet of passion, has slipped into Scorpio, the sign of passion. Put these two forces together and you got one cataclysmic explosion of power and intensity that redefines the term obsession! Yes, with anything Scorpio, there are never any gray areas, as it's all about going all the way until you get what you want or bust.

So, as this cycle kicks off, which will last until October 27, 2010, realize that this is when you will know what truly matters to you, as this is the time when you will have to lay it all on the line to get what you must and refuse to settle for second best, because as it goes, this isn't a period for wimps!

So, to make the most of this, these are the areas per sign in which you will want to make initiatives and place those high bets on yourself, because if you roll big, you can win big. However, if you aren't careful and don't do your homework, trying to bite off more than you can chew will wind you in the crapper...There is zero room for mistakes here, so tread lightly, as Scorpio is also the sign of death, which means failure won't happen in a slight way...So without further ado, here are the hot spots per sign where it's now time to hustle it to the max!

Aries (March 21-April 19)
  • Having more sex
  • Getting more money
  • Wielding more power

Taurus (April 20- May 20)

  • Concentrating on tightening partnerships
  • Sealing the deal with contracts
  • Balancing your chi

Gemini (May 21- June 20)

  • Focusing on fitness
  • Getting organization
  • Being more generous

Cancer (June 21-July 22)

  • Being more romantic
  • Taking risks
  • Expressing yourself

Leo (July 23- August 22)

  • Spending time with family
  • Perfecting your home life
  • Getting your business in order

Virgo (August 23- September 22)

  • Being more communicative
  • Being a bigger part in your community
  • Learning more skills

Libra (September 23- October 22)

  • Resorting long-term security goals
  • Reevaluating your ethics
  • Bolstering your patience

Scorpio (October 23-November 21)

  • Forging new paths
  • Acting on your courage
  • Reviving your ambitions

Sagittarius (November 22- December 21)

  • Settling the past
  • Redefining your legacy
  • Listening to your intuition

Capricorn (December 22-January 19)

  • Reevaluating friendships
  • Pushing for dreams
  • Giving back to humanity

Aquarius (January 20-February 19)

  • Focusing on your career
  • Being an authority figure
  • Learning from role models

Pisces (February 20-March 20)

  • Concentrating on your spirituality
  • Expanding your mind
  • Traveling out of your comfort zone

Pluto goes direct in Capricorn

Rebooted and ready to go.

Pluto is the farthest "planet" from the sun and its slow to make a move. As the "planet" that represents transformation, it's a reminder that all good things do come to those who wait and work it slowly and methodically. Since it's in Capricorn, the sign of structure, this is time to resort our foundations, our beliefs and understanding to be able to withstand the long haul. So, as this distant influence plays its part in the scheme of things, this new forward motion means time to take all that you now know and put it to good use, as in setting up new groundwork that you can rely on.

As for how this affects each sign, here is the list of areas in your life that you should focus on shoring up:

Aries (March 21-April 19)


Taurus (April 20- May 20)


Gemini (May 21- June 20)


Cancer (June 21-July 22)


Leo (July 23- August 22)


Virgo (August 23- September 22)


Libra (September 23- October 22)


Scorpio (October 23-November 21)


Sagittarius (November 22- December 21)


Capricorn (December 22-January 19)


Aquarius (January 20-February 19)

Subconscious understanding

Pisces (February 20-March 20)


Sunday, September 12, 2010

Mercury Goes Direct!

Ready, set, go!

Mercury retrograde not only means a stall to communications, but a stall in your brain. As it goes, even when it moves ahead, the planet is still sleepy and affected by its shadow, making its haze last about a week after. So, true to this cycle, it means slowly emerging from a brain dead period isn't uncommon. If you are suffering from this malfunction, to stimulate yourself back into full capacity a little faster, jolt yourself with a dose of color--as in wearing or just staring at your astrological power color to ignite the genius in you again!


Aries (March 21-April 19) Red
Taurus (April 20- May 20) Kelly Green
Gemini (May 21- June 20

Cancer (June 21-July 22)
Leo (July 23- August 22) Gold

Virgo (August 23- September 22) Navy Blue

Libra (September 23- October 22) Cobalt Blue

Scorpio (October 23-November 21) Crimson

Sagittarius (November 22- December 21) Purple

Capricorn (December 22-January 19) Hunter Green

Aquarius (January 20-February 19)
Electric Blue

Pisces (February 20-March 20)

Saturday, September 11, 2010

Mercury Retrograde

Remembering the past.

Written September, 2001. First published @ SXSW Award Winner for Best Gurl website,, in response to the terrorist attacks.


The first reports of looting have come in since the collapse of the Twin Towers in New York. As horrific as that seems, is as predictable as it can get. After all, a New Yorkers’ reputation is all about being a brooding bad-ass criminal that is really a loner at heart. It is part of the stereotype. So, why should this be so shocking? Life goes on they tell us — and so it has.

Of course, the report of looting, set in such a grim backdrop of carnage, is crass. However, it magnifies the questions we must respond to. It is not just asking ourselves about life going on — that is a given. The question we must ask ourselves now is, how do we want life to go on? What is the quality and level of respect we want to live among? Are we capable of really learning from our past? As this country comes back to a semblance of normalcy, what will it bring? Will it only take a few more days, or weeks, for this fabrication of unity to begin to crack? Do we let our apathy come back with the TV stations’ scheduling, or is this redemption going to revolutionize our minds?

As we all have seen in the last few days, love has out poured throughout much of the world. Throughout the streets of New York — a city famed for its cutthroat environment — strangers are hugging one another; people of all colors are praying together; volunteers and donated supplies are superfluous. Around this nation, the same spirit of unity has driven people to sit on the sides of random highways, waving to strangers in their cars and of little children selling their toy collections to help others in need. It has been an awe-striking phenomenon that has been infectious throughout the nation. No matter what economical class, political allegiance, religious clique, etc. that one belongs, lines that divide have gone asunder. The masses have found a connection through grief. We’ve been given a reminder that we are one nation — however dysfunctional — but like most dysfunctional family, when the madness strikes, we stick through the thick together.

Yes, despite these random reports of obscene selfishness coming in, we should not feel the need to be diverted by the jadedness, allowing it to infest our minds. We need to react, remembering all the kindness and love that has been brought to the surface, and seal those bitter cracks. The statistics are in; ignorance is the minority. There are more of us, than there is of it, and let that serve as our common bond. Let’s not make this sense of togetherness a temporary reaction, but a rediscovered instinct. The alarm clock has gone off, and accepting that and treating everyone as an enemy, if you can’t get your way, is no longer acceptable. It is time to go deeper into your thoughts and emotions, and think about real priorities of what life is about; understand it isn’t always about you. Life includes every single living being in this world. It is about everyone caring, respecting, sharing, having patience, etc., for one and all. These are the pillars of a peaceful society.

We all share this life together, and these events have given us the taste of how powerful it can be to live in a positive alliance. September 11, 2001 marked a day when a renaissance of humanity was woken. We have witnessed the effects of ignorance at its most unimaginably depraved level, and have proved we won’t allow it. Know now that the way we were living before, in all the apathy and arrogant bitterness, was wrong and unnecessarily counterproductive. Know now that it is horrific to be brought together at this price — a price that should forever serve as our reference point for the mistakes we all committed before. Know now we should no longer take for granted the choices and the quality found in how we choose to exist, and how giving we all can be. Know now we must destroy the arrogance and ignorance we allow to exist because of indifference. Know now we need to refuse to be engulfed in, and act out, the frustrated anger we all can get caught in because of our egos. Know now we need to continue to embrace what we each can do, to truly achieve peace, love and happiness — and all the slogans of positivity. Understanding we are all together is taking the first step; living with it, appreciating it and embracing it, is the next. Know now that we should no longer think an eye for an eye, and call it a day. In these days, we have seen too much, suffered too much and proven too much strength to want to revert.

So, as this tragedy’s day will move farther down the time line of our history, what will our personal actions be? With massive, and useless carnage occurring throughout many generations of our existence — what can we gain from our generations’ calling? We have learned so far, history has had two effects — it teaches or it taints; leaving us at the daunting decision to let this moment be a defining one, or just another tear-jerking twist in the human archives. It is each our personal responsibility to either uphold the knowledge we have been given and retain this appreciation for life as part of our daily existence or not. Which will you choose?

Thursday, September 9, 2010

Jupiter re-enters Pisces

More, more, more!

Jupiter is retrograding back into Pisces today, where it was when it entered January 17 and was until June 6th. Now, it goes back and finishes the job it started, completing its run until January 22, 2011. So, to get a refresher on all that you should focus on making fabulous again, click to the link below.

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Venus enters Scorpio

Obsession or bust.

Today, Venus went into Scorpio for a super extended time -- as in 'til to January 11, 2011 (with the exception of November 7th-29th, when it briefly backs up into Libra). This means a period of intensity that can fling you around the spectrum of emotions without warning, making you want to hold onto everything for dear life... As it goes though, the best way to get out the other side OK is to let go; savor the intensity, but resist getting so caught up that you set up self-sabotaging traps, as this is a time when it's likely that you'll have to sink to the bottom, to rise to the top--and you know it, a period of no gray areas. It's hot and it's spicy, to put it mildly...

However, with such extreme emotion that can happen, words can only give you a slight clue on what this transit is all about. So, to truly get the full depth of this experience, without jumping head first into a fiery pit, is to see and feel its beauty and destruction through the lens of cinema. Yes, to best do your homework on this subject matter, sit back and watch these films that capture the passion and power that is Venus in Scorpio and you will further understand that this time isn't for faint of heart.
(Double click for full screen viewing)

Bitter Moon (1992)
"In Roman Polanski's black comedy-thriller, uptight British couple Nigel (Hugh Grant) and Fiona (Kristin Scott Thomas) encounters wheelchair-bound American expatriate novelist Oscar (Peter Coyote) and his young French wife, Mimi (Emmanuelle Seigner), on a cruise to Istanbul. Sensing Nigel's fascination with Mimi, Oscar recounts the sordid tale of their love affair, which gradually deteriorates into a series of sadistic and degrading sex games." Netflix

Heavenly Creatures
"The Lord of the Rings director Peter Jackson helms this chilling true-life drama set in 1950s New Zealand about an obsessive friendship between two girls -- introvert Pauline (Melanie Lynskey) and self-confident Juliet (Kate Winslet, in her film debut) -- that led to murder. The two become increasingly inseparable, retreating to an imaginary world, until their relationship invites opposition from their families that ultimately begets blood." Netflix

New Moon in Virgo

Time to focus!

When it comes to all things Virgo, it means time to get to business, as Virgo is the harvest sign. So, to make this day count I tried to plant seeds...and since it was in my 4th house, the area that rules home, I wanted to organize my mess and really sort out making my place a real home...Instead, I meandered and then found this, Making of A Male Model, a fabulous 80's mini series starring Joan Collins and Jon-Erik Hexum, with a stellar supporting cast, which includes Roxy Roker!

What better way to kick off a moment to get organized with some procrastinating? After all, nothing revs up getting one's ass into gear like panic!

Friday, September 3, 2010

Mercury Retrograde in my solar 11th

Ramshackling it's way through my house of hopes and dreams.

It's already happening. Today, I started getting excited about next Wednesday's new moon in Virgo, Jupiter going back to Pisces and Venus entering Scorpio for a super extended time. All are suppose to be amazing and even more amazing for me...but lately, every time I think there is going to be something special, it never happens...or if it does shows signs of something, it eventually gets taken away in a series of prolonged and confusing events.

It's dramatic and tragic in its own way, every time, so it should of been no shock to see a big dead cockroach in the entrance of my building as my first omen today. Then, yesterday, I saw dead ladybug in my apartment...and even my headphones.

In every Mercury retrograde, inevitably one pair of earphones always gets destroyed. This time, it was two, and in a matter of 24 hours...So, time to downsize on the expectations of triple threat Wednesday, just like today's disappointing Hurricane Earl?

..."OK, new moon in my house of hopes and wishes; Jupiter, the planet of luck, in my house of romance and career; and Venus, pleasure planet, lighting up my personal pleasure axis, what now?"

(Update: September 9th, killed another set of headphones, now making the total of 3 in just a week!)