Friday, January 15, 2010

Mercury goes direct in Capricorn, my solar 3rd

Getting back to what I was saying...

Back in Dec. 2, 2009, Full Moon In Gemini...

Party of Two, Seat for One

As a Gemini rising, it’s like I am never really alone, which works out fine, since I spend a lot of time alone, need to spend time alone, like to spend time alone — so much so, its recently gotten to the point where I don’t even understand the purpose of a relationship, other than as a source of regular sex and someone that can to do stuff for me, like move heavy furniture, or get crap for me at the store when I don’t feel like going, etc.

I don’t think I am jaded either, but it’s just how I am and it’s encouraged by my independence. Not to say I’m not social. I love people and being around others, but to everything there is a limit. After all, I’m lazy and I like to do things my way, and going solo makes it the easiest way to go. I don't have to explain anything, wait for anyone and I can get things done fast. Not to say I am not romantic either, because I am — extremely so, which makes any relationship worth it needing to be mind-blowing, because at this point, I’m on that vibe on my own and not looking for a buzz kill… But sometimes I do think about this and wonder if it’s that I’m actually autistic? I do live in my own world, and freak easily by any slight disturbance…

The good thing about my universe though is that it's benevolent and everything works in my favor, at least eventually and if detoured, the ride usually winds up at an equally enthralling destination. Either or, this means I get to OD on ultimate freedom all day, everyday and I know just what to do with it and I celebrate that fact everyday…But then again, what is the sound of a tree that falls in the forest if no one is around to hear it?

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

THANK YOU SWEET JESUS. Mercury retrograde always fucks me up. People are extra dumb anyway, then you add this and they turn into a new level or moron.